A time for forgiveness: On my terms baby !

I am told this is a time for forgiveness.

I am informed that it is my duty to conform
I am reminded that Life is too short
( yeah right, you remember now)

I do not say anything, to those wise words
of vested interests
the very thought that
this is a changed time and
a changed me

that oppression cannot touch me anymore,
or my children
is uplifting and fun somehow

this time the rapid heartbeat
is elsewhere

I wonder what..
I wonder why...
I wonder when..

Ah, the total absense of fear
intoxicating

I cannot forgive
without her permission, y'know
al the 'Me's that reside within ..

the me in 1993
the me that Wimbledon night
and the me at the other time

I smile patiently
and listen to all those me's

and I let each one grieve
and anger
and vent

I sit with her in love
without judgement

And I wait
and seek permission from

all those Me's
to guide me forward